I have been longing for something “else” since I was very little. I grew up in a trailer park, most of the time, and I lost both of my parents by the time I was five.
My dad killed himself when I was five years old. He was working at a slaughterhouse at that time. This gives you an idea of how poor we were. My mom was gone, and my dad was raising four kids alone.
After my dad died, I was sent to one abusive house after another. I was an orphan.
Guess what started to happen? I started longing, longing for something different, all of the time.
I longed for parents, clothes (at one point I only had one pair of underwear), I longed for a new home, and I longed for love.
Cut to today. I still long. It is a habit.
And it keeps me stuck.
Someone asked me the other day, “but aren’t you “manifesting,” not longing.”
I am not. The difference between manifesting energy and longing is an element of jealousy. The energy of longing has a sadness to it, similar to an “I will never have THAT,” kind of energy.
Honestly, for me, it has a hint of victim energy to it as well.
In the video below, I talk about the difference between “manifesting to create the life you desire and longing.”
Let’s move out of longing and into creating.
Let’s move into abundance and love.
Love,
Beth
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